Will I Ever Be Good Enough?

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Posted by Jodi | Posted in Some spare thoughts from a writer | Posted on 25-01-2018

The nerdy girl in class with the broken glasses, that was me. Not good enough at sports to always be included, or more often chosen as a last resort, and usually too smart for her own good. It’s hard having a good memory. I’ve learned over the years to at least keep my mouth shut. Very few people recount a story the way it really happened. That’s not always a bad thing. Oh well, that’s not the true meaning of the title of this blog.

I participate in things, yet so many times, I find myself coming up short. Still, like Dora, I keep swimmin’ or at least writin’.

In 2006 I attended my first writers’ conference, the now defunct “Maui Writers Conference”. It was an awesome conference and I began to learn the craft of writing. That’s not to say that I hadn’t been writing all of my life before that, I had. I just really didn’t understand what I was doing, or at least I didn’t know that I did. One of many really great things about attending writers’ conferences is that you get to do workshops with men and women who really know and practice their craft. Another thing is talking writing with other writers. It’s a different language. What a great time I’ve had at each and every conference that I’ve attended.

Still I feel like a kid at a candy store, on the outside with my nose pressed to the window. So many other kids on the inside enjoying all the fruits of the their labors. They have the proof of their talent and ability. Oh, I’ve been told, by a best selling writer that I can write. It felt good and I share that comment with my friends. But as I’m want to say when something feels beyond my reach, that and $5.00 will get me a large latte at the local coffee shop.

Many times it’s so much easier to whine about my short comings and inabilities, even though my cats can drown me out. However it does not stop me from sitting in front of my computer, getting to know a new character or tackling a scene in one of my stories. Sometimes I spread myself very thing. With a forty hour a week day job, a second part-time job, community activities and writing, there’s seldom enough time in the days and weeks to fulfill my ambitions.

Oh well, I am very aware that things could be much worse. I’m not going to try to name them here. What I am going to do is read through and edit this installment of my thoughts. Then, after I post, I will go home and work on my writing.

Keep the coffee flowing.

Respectfully submitted,

Jodi

 

Getting Back on Track

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Posted by Jodi | Posted in Some spare thoughts from a writer | Posted on 18-01-2018

I have been letting my writing slide lately. With this Flu/Cough that ‘s going around, many times I just want to curl up on the couch. Now that I’m feeling much better, I need to start putting more effort back into my writing. I signed up for and need to follow through on Writers Digest University webinar, “How to Hook an Agent” by Katie Shea Boutillier. So far, what I’ve listened to is fascinating.

As I work through the webinar and rework my query, I will concentrate on getting something I can really work with. I have  been feeling a little negative about the prospect of ever getting published. Part of this may be the Flu, however a lot of it might just be the feedback, or lack there of, that I’ve received over the years. One of my goals this year is to just put time and effort into my writing. The thing that I need to concentrate on is what my writing has given to me. Over the years, in my day jobs, there is always someone else in control. That cannot be said about my writing. When I sit down at the computer, I feel an energy that fills me. The power of becoming a scribe for characters that grow in my imagination has always given me a sense of power and worth.

I’m not sure that I have a great talent for description, although some have told me that I do. There are still so many things that I need to prove to myself about my writing abilities.

Well, feeling better now, I intend on put the effort back into my writing. I have more than a few stories that need work and building. About five of these stories already have a world that makes a most definite bulge in the side of my head.

In my family I have always been the “weird one”. I guess I just need to keep working and building on that.

Time to get back to work on my writing.

Keep the coffee flowing.

Respectfully submitted,

Jodi

What Will 2018 Bring?

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Posted by Jodi | Posted in Short Story Snippets, Some spare thoughts from a writer | Posted on 02-01-2018

We’ve made it through the horrendous year of 2017. It’s really hard to understand many of the things that happened with our country.

I was called fragile and a snowflake, because I would not give in to condescending meanness. I enjoy a good discussion, and a person does not have to agree with me, however I, as does everyone, have a right to my opinion. This is not the first time I’ve dealt with this. It’s just been a while. Well, I guess if I stand up for myself, then I have proven something. I may come across as a bit fragile, but I guarantee you I am not. Actually the negative was a bit fun, because I proved to myself that I could hold my own with out reciprocating in kind.

This year could prove to be much more than ever anticipated. When negative is thrown into the mix and not returned in kind, it proves the strength of our position. More women are standing up and defending their rights. These movements will continue to grow. I sincerely hope that I will be in the midst of these incredible women, adding to what this country is truly about.

For those who would rather be mean and negative, get ready, we will no longer bow low. To those sincere and eager to grow this wonderful country of ours, even if I disagree with you, let’s talk and add to the conversation. I’m ready, are you?

Keep the coffee flowing.

Respectfully submitted,

Jodi